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Originally Posted by mymorgy
Mari
do you think that is a bipolar thing? I forgot exactly what my former lawyer who helped me get disability said but something to the effect that my work record was like one who was bipolar. It seemed to get progressively get worse. I don't know if it was a steady erosion of my confidence or what. I was outrageously confident in elementary school and seventh grade. Then I went to a prep school which was harder to get good grades. I will never forget my latin teacher telling me she couldn't give me higher grades because i seemed too nervous. ugh. I saw her when i was in college and told her i was getting a's in Latin. so there.
bobby
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As much as I keep reading & asking, the pile of what I
don't know just seems to grow outrageously. My first job was a dream come true, my next job
amazing, & the next *through the sky* unbelievable. Even with my drinking at alcoholic levels, I kept getting work at top money.
The drinking was to squash the situational depression. I couldn't handle my husband's & daughter's deaths. Finally a producer cared enough to take me to AA. Drinking quit working. When I quit drinking thru AA, things got better ... but I could never get back to the professional level. Never tried; knew I no longer had it.
I've done fine in my new careers, but I've always felt them failures. I thought this was as good as it could be. Could the alcohol have been hiding bipolar whatever-it-is? Was it maybe never depression but something bipolar then?
Oh, well. Curious. Doesn't matter. Things are good enough, considering.
Oh, but Bobby! How I wish I'd been with you in college when you met your prepschool Latin teacher & reported your college Latin grades: A's!! Yep, wish I'd been there then
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