The ONLY thing that has gotten me thru this is my faith in God. When I was suicidal I kept hearing the Holy Spirit tell me that my life is not my own, I was bought with a price. I can't tell you how many times I prayed I wouldn't wake up. It was months with no relief in sight. I too was only 100 lbs when I was admitted to the hospital. I am thankful that I was finally taken seriously and that the meds do help but after 6 years, it's still a struggle.