good day

went and seen two doctors since my last post "going to the man tomorrow"
interesting! as i imagined it would go. i walk in the exam room take a little time getting up on the table as he sits on his stool. i am asked, so how do you feel?
in return i tell him all that i could that everything before surgery #1 had not changed a thing. if anything situation is much worse. asked him, please explain what happened to the left arm. why is it unusable. there wasn't any pain in the left arm other than my last three fingers would go numb and why is the pain now symmetrical. i get a shrug of his shoulders and says "i don't know what to tell you until i get a cat-scan, tells me it wouldn't have been from the surgeries.
i told him i wasn't pleased he would let me go three days without medicine, no return of my heaven knows how many messages. the fact i recognize the difference in my pupils, only that it took another doctor telling me hornes syndrome does happen after cervical surgery. it appeared after surgery #2.
he says have you gone to the eye doctor. told him i have been wearing glasses since i was in 4th grade and have gone for regular check-ups all my life. he gets up decides to take a look with a pen light and what does he see
a difference. why would he sweep or even try to sweep this under the rug is beyond me. my homework along with what my other doctor tells me most certainly should have been a red flag something went wrong and that is just my eyes. what else could have gone wrong he isn't telling me. my hair is falling out having all the x-rays, cat-scans mri and meds. my story isn't comforting but it is happening, the fact i have not fused yet seems to be his only concern and that has not happened. what a disgrace, i have no intentions on not getting my questions answered whom ever that might be.
i would hope to return back at work by the new year. i have come to accept that both surgeries were not helpful if anything made life much more difficult getting up and starting my days. i am under the care of my pain specialist and found i will need medicine that will ease my pain enough that will allow me a return to my job come the new year. work until i can't anymore apply for social security again, ssd does not help much but it is something. i receive no other assistance. but i am certain that day will come. one other thing about this unexplained behavior of this doctor. example i have been waiting two weeks for documentation for a additional 3 month leave and before my eyes and children along with the persons in the waiting room tries to throw his worker under the bus. happily i stood and watched her stand up for herself where he was found telling a lie. yes i will be seeking a new doctor when done with this one. just letting him dig a bigger hole for him to fall in.
what a shame! MESSAGE ALWAYS DO YOUR HOMEWORK, NEVER BE ALONE, GET COPIES OF YOU RESULTS AND NEVER LOOK AT YOUR DOCTOR OR ALLOW HIM TO TREAT HIM LIKE A GOD THEY ARE PEOPLE SOME GREAT SOME NOT SO GREAT, YOU WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL LOOK IN YOUR EYES WHEN SPEAKING. I HAVE OTHER DOCTORS I NEED TO SEE.

HOPE ALL A PAIN FREE DAY

AND LIFE GOES ON