Hey Kicker...I know that fear as well. I was acutely aware of that fear after I stepped off that curb and broke both ankles. The little voice said "its getting worse".

As for the pain. I've used Vicodan for over 20 years. I take the least amount necessary to ease the pain. If I need a boost, I add some advil or something. Its always worked for me if I use just the right amount.

Try not to be afraid of the dark. We don't know whats around the corner. Could be a cure. Could be more symptoms. Could be death. But we don't know. Stay in the moment and push back a little. Or alot. But the day to day journey is full of gifts and challenges. I try to enjoy them both.

You are not alone.