good day all

yesterday i decided to different projects
things that i would do
like change things up a little
projects that needed tending to
i moved in march of this year
45 days before my 2nd surgery
i like a well kept home
love doing things that make me feel good
well what a mistake
am i paying for it
all i want to do is surrender
just take me already
it frustrates me not being able to be me
my pain took over
and that was it
i had at one point
dropped everything
and dropped myself
cried the whole time trying to accomplish
things i love doing
can you just picture it
crying over everything i'm doing
got up this morning
and will finish what i started
and i already cried enough for the whole day
but determined i am
no one can tell me otherwise
i was never ever in this much pain
my doctor may have just made things worse
because today i live with new pain that i felt
directly after the surgeries
and i have waited for years just
hoping for a better outcome
compliant all the way
my decorating should not be as painful
but was i wrong
i'm expected to do a simple task
whats going to happen when i go back to work
well as i wait for meds to kick in
thought i would share
and express how it just sucks
not being able a simple task
like getting up and just do
whatever it ma be
going to the bathroom is a task
a simple thing everyone must do
hoping i'll be able to move
while listening to the rolling stones
great way getting started
wish all a productive day
cat scan is next week
lets see what's going on
as my doctor puts it
he says he can't answer any of my questions
till the test
i just think he full of it
and is having a hard time accepting
that this patient was a failure
you know how doctors like
winning
have a great day
as i shall try
lots of wishful dreams
that do come true