thanks.

dad is now freaking out more about the computer (which was working again and as far as i know has not given other problems YET - it's an intermittent problem).

he has decided it's because the computer monitor is shared with a tv. well i arlready tested this theory last year unplugging everything from the computer and monitor. not only does he not remember. he has now done the same thing. and told me that i never tested it, and when i lived away from here, the computer worked, when i was working, the computer worked - except weekends (hello? i don't watch that tv on weekends), etc etc... i.e... my use of that tv was "breaking the computer."

i blew several gaskets in his face. he's gone out now. perhaps to find some other computer "guru" or perhaps to buy a new monitor. who frickin knows.

he's unplugged everything non-computer - the decoder etc. it wasn't enough taking it off the tv. he unplugged all the cords from the other ends too... duh.

no more vampire diaries/moonlight unless mom lets me watch the repeat on sunday. but i can't use headphones on the main tv.

mostly i am just so upset after all the time i have invested in trying to sort out what could or could not be wrong with that thing, to be told that "it always works when you're not here" (UNTRUE... they called me up several times when i was living in my own apartment with BSODs, spontaneous reboots. etc..... )

now i'm sitting here feeling so angry, and yet remorseful for yelling at my old dad. it's not his fault if he doesn't remember, says a voice. thing is - he's always had this "selective" memory. i don't think it's age. and he won't take my word for it that i did something. that and the blanket theory that my being here = tv in use. it really hurt. so i am hurt, but also really angry. i think part of my blowup was because i was still very upset from the news last night and maybe the zoloft. i don't know any more.

this had me considering seeing if i could go live in a psych community until i am well enough to get a job. it is different than a ward. i will ask about it i think.

~ waves ~