i am sorry you are going through this. medication helped me and now finally my therapist is helping me just by being supportive. I think risperdal is helping my paranoia...which is probably related to my anxiety. it is also helping my irritability. i have fought with friends about my taking medication. i was diagnosed about nine years ago and i am 67. most of my life i was without medication and i can feel the difference and it has helped my suffering and i guess is worth the side effects.
glad you joined the forum
bobby