dear cath

thank you for reminding me
putting it in prospective
does certainly helps greatly
i do have many, many things that
remind me being be humble eva
like yourself just watching the leaves
change into beautiful vibrant colors
that inspire us
i'm so happy that you
enjoy the beauty in the world
the beauty in your heart
that reaches out and reminds
someone like myself that
has ocd
constantly battling that in itself
is a pain in the neck
thank you so much for reminding me
just slow down it's not going anywhere
i am blessed and am able being on the 16th floor
west side of the building
the sunset make me cry with such beauty
i stop and watch with my 13 year old
sometimes she calls me in the living room
and watch together
your hobbies are something are wonderful
something that had to hurt burring
but replaced with others
you as many others understand
the other kind of pain we suffer with
along with the physical stuff
i do have a doctor i talk with faithfully
he does help in many ways
reminds me we are all not the same
but we all need love, a hug, someone who would just listen
really listen
that you have given me
thank you so much for that
funny you mention laundry
something i truly enjoy doing
i guess it's a ritual thing
have not been able to do
so i get things all set up for my angel
well trial and error is how we learn
she does a great job
minus my two coverlets by accident of course
two different occasions beach stains
poor thing was so nervous telling me
all is fine gave us reason to do this online shopping
it was great
so we talked about mom doing the laundry that
needs bleaching
and they are lying neatly ready for me to fold today
cath, i find it so difficult getting out of the apt.
something i need in my life
can't drive, pay insurance for what
it sits in the parking space waiting for me
i believe you understand just the process
of getting ready drains me and i just get in
a terrible mood because it takes so darn long
i've stopped wearing a bra what a pain
in the neck lol
but on a serious note tomorrow
is my appointment with the doctor
that will be removing the lump i found
right breast 3:00 area
i put it in gods hands
remind myself it is what it is
and am grateful i have my mammos
every year
only i put this year off by 4 months
with everything else that is going on
ya know that pain in the neck thing
anyhow my eldest sara my poet will be with me
so i will have someone to lean on
next week cat scan checking how fusing is coming along
until then i'll remember "take it slower"
it is now what it is
your awesome
hope you never stop enjoying
the beautiful colors
beautiful colors come from you

be well

p.s. got a call from my place of employment explaining that i shall receive letter
retracting my insurance status it is back in effect.

with lots love and even more HUGS
THANK YOU