Thank you all for the support. I know my cutting off from the world is not a solution but i am struggling to get to a place where i can be accepted or i accept myself the way i am and I dont think negative. I feel that is the most important part of a healthy life but now and then some doubts pile up and I feel that i let my self dragged down. I know there are so many people who want to see me happy and healthy and I appreciate it so much and wish all of you the best also.