I am ok, I am not, I am ok, I am so not ok.

Migraines. Almost everyday for a week now. But not headache migraines. Can't see, having auras, cognative stuff like I can't talk and look like I am having a stroke, but only a little headache.

I have an appointment to see the pdoc in a week.

I took a valum at lunch today, and I am only having a little blurred vision tonight. Which is a blessing. I was actually able to make dinner for a change.

I can't decide if it's from the chiropractor, stress, illness, my mood swings or what. I have no clue.

My mood is pretty good today, but I bawled all day Monday and some of last night. (Monday, I found out one of our clients died and she was one of my favorite people to see. Broke my heart.)

I thought grownups didn't rapid cycle so much. I mean, kids (my Wes) can cycle up and down in one day or in one hour. But I am usually really depressed for awhile-sometimes a week or even a few months, float back up into normal and rarely get even hypomanic.

Since the wreck at Christmas, I have been everywhere. BLeeeeaaaahhh! This sucks.

If I go to my regular doc, she'll just tell me to quit smoking. I can't right now, I really can't. I am so anxious I would flip my lid completely without nicotine.

Hopefully the pdoc has an idea.

Until then, I will stick to my teeny little valum at lunch and see if I can keep going. *They are only 2's. and a bottle usually lasts me 3 months. Not this month though. *



I am so loosing it. Sheesh. Tigger-bounce, bounce, bounce.

oh, and I am SO not sleeping. I sleep like the dead, and I haven't been able to fall asleep at a decent hour since the migraines started.