Hello there,

I understand you and can relate to what you are describing/feeling...

I agree with what has been said... You need meds... they will help you... About family, dont tell them... they wont understand... My family dont get it either... It hurts, but we came alone to this world, and alone we have to survive...

About the fear feeling... I feel fear most of the times... Im working on it... sometimes I just let it go... if I focus on dont trying to feel fear, I feel more fear... If that make sense...
Let your feelings flow... ride the wave and, take some meds, they help...

Much love.

We are here to listen, root for you and try to help.

Feel better tomorrow !