Don't be worried about going for council. You don't have to tell anyone. There are no judgements made here eithor. I think it takes strength not weakness to go for help. I am not afraid to say I go to a psychologist. I know I need the help with all my problems, and I am grateful that I found someone who listens to me and offers some real ideas to help. It makes you more self confident, not less. We all need a boost sometimes when things get really tuff. Don't let your family get in the way of doing the best thing for yourself. I am here hoping you find good direction and peaceful state of mind. I also come back here for the friends who help me go forward, not backward where I can't change a thing. good luck to you, you are in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie