[Never feel bad about reaching out to those of us on this site. It takes courage to admit when you are having a hard time. Do not be afraid to seek council. It is OK to feel stuck in rut. There are ways out, and you did the right thing by talking. You will only find careing compassionate people here. Since I go through bad depression too, I do know how it feels to be stuck not doing anything but sitting. When that happens I come back here, talk to my psychologist, and take that tiny step forward. My medical problems are severe, and I do need the help that I find right here. Please be good to yourself. I care about you. ginnie