At the end of this April I went inpatient at the psych wing at a hospital, there they treated me for depression/anxiety as well as epilepsy. My SSI claim was accepted, but because I made too much in April I was denied benefits. Tonight and for the last fifteen years I feel unsteady and horrible. In one month, foodstamps, medicade and SSI were dropped, now without any resources and months of mailing documents and all my busy work has gone down the drain. I feel alienated by my friends who seem to want to stay clear of the troubled guy. Worst of all, my mind/brain is such an unpleasant place to be. I wish somebody could lift the scaffolding and help me, being a bit confused most the time and having cognitive problems with memory and attention make doing the smallest task and completing paperwork difficult. The dizziness is terrible. I have no meds to relieve the pain or clear my mental channel. After 13 years of treatment why am I just as bad as I was in the summer of 1999?