I am wondering if klonopin would serve you better.....you have gone through a very traumatic experience when your plate was already overflowing....I have a gut feeling it is for the good and you will finally be able to work out some issues so you will finally be kinder and gentler to yourself and not expect yourself to climb Mt. Everest all the time. Limitations are nice....they give us a comfort zone....Expecting yourself to be omnipotent is such an incredible burden.....
Boy you must have some incredible will....iron plus....can you start listening to more music or something? You care so much. That is such a wonderful trait..You really are so wonderful...I send you hugs....You will come out healthier after this period....I hope you can approach it with curiosity and say to yourself,,okay what comes next? you will be safe....
Bobby