Morgy / Bobi-love. Yes, my body is putting limitations on me. I am still searching for a middle of the road solution. I am looking for peace and trying to accept that this is how my body works now. No more used-to-coulds. It is hard.

No one can avoid stress, even good stress. But even good stress makes me sick. grrrr. I will win. Even if it means adapting better.

I am starting a garden. That gives me peace, time to not think and just do. I love watching the plants grow, but I hate avoiding touching the worms. icky.

Thank you for the hugs Mari and bizi. I know you are going through the same thing right now Mari, so I really appreciate the support.

I wonder what helps anxiety besides benzos? I have been on Paxil, Zoloft and Wellbutrin, which are all supposed to help. But I had REALLY bad reactions to the Paxil and Zoloft.

I loved Wellbutrin, but my GP wont even consider it and forbade me to take it again. She didn't explain, but I think it's because I had seizures on Effexor.

But then she gives me Cymbalta??? Who knows.

I need my pdoc.