please don't leave us. I know your pain. I can feel you and I am praying for you. I get despondent too, to the point where you are at. I have nodes too, cervical issues, dental issues, emtional issues, issues with a horrible family. I found a family right here that are there for me. Let us offer you some hope and help. please post and talk to us. You will find compassion and hope, and maybe some direction so you don't have to suffer with your medical condition. I hate my thyroid too, my son had thyroid cancer. I face the same issues. There are ways to get your medicine, and someone on this site may be able to help you. Allow me to talk to you, I won't abandon you. Do not leave this earth yet. Life is precious and there are reasons for continuing on. I am in pain too, yet I find those small reasons to keep trucking along. private a post, I will listen. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You are not alone in suffering. ginnie