That last sentance you said, "at whos foot do I need to grovel to" got to me. It as it seems people have to beg for their pain relief. These doctos have control over what kind of quality we have in our lives. I was lucky to find a good pain specialist that does treat me for pain. I thank God I have him. Others especially those with RSD, PD and other neurological problems suffer so much that I tear up reading their posts. This kind of suffering should not have to happen in our country. I wish I could pray away their pain and suffering. thanks for posting. Because our state will now test for THC, I can't try even the liquid kind, or in foods. I can't afford to loose my benefits which I have with medicare. Being disabled is so hard to endure as it is. I just wish things could be different. Be good to yourself. ginnie