Hi... just a bit of general goings on from my microcosm here
i have not found an explicit enough way to let my parents know when i cannot engage. especially my mother. eg: i say: "i do not want to speak or be spoken to," and 5 mins later mom "needs" to know something and says... "just this one thing then i'll leave you alone" ... and this is in the BEST of scenarios. it seems to be thing with her. this used to happen when i was growing up and had my own room, and would close the door with a sign saying please keep out along with issuing a spoken request. she'd INVARIABLY knock on the door with "just this one thing" ...
worse than Lt. Columbo, dang it!
Suggestions on how i can handle momma Columbo? General statements do not work... even specific ones don't... sigh. ignoring her hasn't worked either btw. so now what??? any ideas?
so far the only effective thing is when it gets so bad i snap OR go into a meltdown and
she then goes to sulk in their room ... renouncing anything she might have planned to watch on tv, etc. then i feel like a total ***** for chasing her out of the main living areas.
i would like a peaceful way to block interaction for a time.
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i had to fill out a form the other day. took a lorazepam preventively because i was winding up but i never got through it. i started.... i entered 2 things. both of them wrong. the very first was my birthday. i thought about it carefully, about which order i was supposed to put the day/month in. filled it in and still screwed it up. my head is not with it.
it was one of those write inside the boxes form, don't erase etc etc. my mother ended up doing the rest of the form with me present.
heck.
so i know my head is not all there, at least, not all the time. sometimes my concentration is good. other times it is like what concentration, who me?
but i tell ya. when i took lorazepam twice one day (2.5 mg am and 2.5 mg pm) the next day i felt so much better (calmer), even just on waking. i won't take it regularly like that, but i am going to be a bit more free rein with it for the moment. whatever works. pdoc said it would be fine for a while.
~ waves ~
p.s. i posted separately for different things, so
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