Been thinking of you a lot.
You've been dealing with so much for so long and from such a young age. You're such a talented woman. For 10 years or so, I guess, I have so admired your work and especially your tenacity!
The more I read your posts here the more I am confused though. Please don't give up. You're a fighter. We all know that.
If son can't look after mum then someone else can and I'm sure that they can help you.
I don't want to see your life hastened but I would love to see it more comfortable. You're a very special human being.
<sigh>