Feeling down and useless....
For the past 3 days I've been curled up in a ball feeling like this also. Well, I've been ill too, so I guess that's part of it.
I was just sharing this with a very good friend - the fact that I feel like I'm 'fading'......literally. I see my family and friends getting on fine and my kids are becoming more and more independent (which is good) and it's as tho I'm slowly fading out of the picture. It's a very empty, cold feeling with extreme sadness. Alot of us do struggle with depression and I think it's good to talk about....for me anyway. It somehow helps.
The strangest part about this feeling is, deep down, I think I 'want' to fade out. I get in these frames of mind where I'd just rather throw in the towel rather than continuing on and on and onnnnn every single day battling this pain nightmare that has consumed our lives.

It's like I wanna just get on over to the 'other' side, where there is no more suffering. Am I making any sense?
But then, a 'good' day will roll around and these feelings subside for awhile....and then it all starts all over again.

Sorry, didn't mean to get so 'deep'.....but just felt compelled to share, Karen, especially since we both know that feeling of being 'useless'.
I know this is not true, tho.....we ARE useful and needed and loved. We have a purpose here and there are people who really need us.

Being sick sure messed me up. Since I was sick to my stomach, I wasn't able to take my regular meds (head meds ) and boy, my mind really started playing games with me. That's when all these dark thoughts came along. It's been aweful.
But, by talking about it, like I did with my friend and asking for prayer, it helps alot. It's not a sign of weakness at all. It's proof that we all need this fellowship.

I hope you feel better soon and when Thursday rolls around, you'll start to feel like things are beginning to get sorted once and for all.

Caring as Always,
Rae