I have been in your space. It feels so hopeless. Tonight, I am reading design books of all types, excited by the ideas, "the old me", except I was an attorney and a judge. Shortly, my hands will hurt to the point I cannot write, so I will raise up my prior things, so you can see what I believe. I believe in a crew of docs, nerve shots, and daily meds, including opiates like oxy, methadone, and so many opiates...the key is how does your liver take to it? How does the brain? Trick it with a new drug.

But I speak (yes, speech dragon on the computer, but I do not have it on this one, so I must write fast before pain comes. Don't let anyone say pain is in your head - intractable pain, chronic pain, RSD is (damn it) a real injury. If you broke your leg the docs wouldn't all stand around saying, "she just doesn't want to run enough, pray enough, she wants pity, she wants attention"....no, she just wants her leg set, thank you, let's go!