Dear wife_of_faith, I'm very sorry to read your message and hear what's happened. Any wonder you feel you're not coping... that would be extremely traumatic. I hope you have other family and friends around you for support at this time. I wonder if you have thought about seeing a counsellor immediately to help you work through what has happened? After trauma it's usually better to get help or advice as fast as possible rather than waiting weeks or months.

thinking of you.
Lara