Oh Eliza, I found myself in the throes of pain, waiting for this, waiting for that, and found in my heart, the Lord was not teaching me lessons intentionally in producing the waiting, for the waiting is a part of the scheme and calendar of humankind; rather, I found the Lord bringing me greater resolve, shared strength to bear another day, love eternal to know I was borne up in the prayers of so many who knew of the wait...... This is the place in which you find yourself, and we who pray add your awful wait and your pain to our intercession with the Lord in our daily talks with Him. May you be given grace today to feel embraced by God full in His love, and aware in time the calendar will pass as you take next steps hopefully toward best means in pain management.
Prayin,
Mark56