I'm four months into my recovery. This week I decided come hell or high water I was going to do my walking. I got some gel inserts in my sneakers to limit the shock to my brain.

The first two days I had head pain but I muddled through. This is the fifth day and for the last three days I've had no head pain.

This has lead me to dream that maybe the worst is behind me. I do get clumsy and almost fell three times so far. I had to slow my pace down and make deliberate steps to avoid this.

My question is:

Is the clumsyness something that gets better with time? Will I be able to run again. I dont now due to the headache and clumsyness.

I was saying to my husband last night that maybe I can go back to work soon. He reminded me that I had four days of no headaches then woke up with a migrane that landed me in the ER. It lasted nine days.

When do we know we are able to go back? How does the MD determine this? I can maybe see me doing some light duty desk work but I wonder if my days of working up 25 patients (ekg's, med lists, holter monitors) are in the past. I just cant move that fast without getting clumsy and a headache.

I also fear dealing with the high levels of stress. I wonder is my anxiety and anger will be a problem. I was told that it would be at least six weeks before I can start seeing a therapist. I haven't even started that process.

Maybe it's hopeful thinking but if we dont have hope than what's left..

Thanks for any input. I really appreciate it...