I am so sorry that the surgery didn't work for you. My first did not, but my second one left me better. Not without pain but better. I wish you had gotten the same results. Even if you are already on zanax, ask for another medication. You need your sleep to be able to heal. Also your muscles have a chance to relax so you can heal. Cathy was right about the meditation also. I live near the gulf coast and sit quiety on the beach when ever my lousy ankels allow me to walk down there. I find it soothing. I know you are afraid of another surgery. I would be too. I think you going to another specialist however might be worth it just for another opinion. You are waiting for test results now. I sure hope, that nothing negative comes from that. Being in the kind of pain you are in is draining. Don't stop asking for more help. Have you had a Katamine infusion? This is different from a block or epidural. I have had two, and they have helped me. The proceedure didn't hurt much, and there was a noticeable improvement after. Not all have good results however from what I read on neuro talk. Since I do not want any more surgery either, if I have more pain, I am going to ask for the infusion again. I hope and pray you find something that can ease what you are going through. ginnie