It's great that you've come out of lurk mode!
I sure am sorry for what you are going thru. I wish I could be of help, but I know others will be along to point you in a direction. There are so many forums here that I know you'd benefit from. You probably know your way around since you've been reading up.
I just wanted to say 'Welcome'
It's great to have you!
Caring
Rae