Sorry you are having a hard time. I am glad you are still on earth. Here you will find people who are non judgemental. I am sorry you were harshly treated. It is hard enough when you do have problem. Having someone around to bring you down further doesn't help at all. Please keep coming back to the forum and do ask for others input. There are alot of caring individuals that will try to help you. Please hold on, and try to find one moment in a day that brings some kind of peace to your life. I use the distraction method, by diving into a book to take my mind off of the medical issues I have. I also come back here to neuro talk for comfort. It helps. I wish you all the best. ginnie