It sounds like the neurosurgeon dropped the ball and left you hanging. I am so sorry he was indifferent to your needs. You have to have a doctor, or team of doctos that are on the same page as you are. I sincerely hope that you find that. Without the support and caring and help from doctors, it makes a bad situation much worse. I will pray you find that healing physician who will do all he can to help you. I am here to listen, any time you need to talk. I so hope that you have peace in your life on Thanksgiving. I wish there were some words of comfort to give you while you go through this trauma. ginnie