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Originally Posted by Blaine
I look back at this and read it and honestly feel vomit at the back of throat -
HOW did this happen to me - I had it all right; a happy focused life, a decent marriage, 4 children, a home and now ALL of it is in misery and in jeopardy. We are in financial ruin because of my medical bills, my marriage is at the bottom, my children are miserable because my marriage is miserable, and I can't get off the couch.............................
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Thats the toughest part isnt it? acceptance.
I know I now accept because I have ditched my idea of buying a yacht to sail around Asia and am currently planning where to put grab handles in the bathroom/shower so I dont slip over on my numb feet :
Exiting the world down the track with advanced P/N was never in my grand plan. Oh well at least we can come here and talk without guilty about it
On the bright side who knows maybe they will find a drug that completely takes care of the pain its all I can really hope for.