We always talk about living like it is your last day, but I have learned that until you face that as a real option you really don't know what it can mean. When I was younger I would have said, "Yeah, I'll go nuts with fun and a carefree attitide." Interesting, when doctors told my wife and me that I am in God's hands and all they can do is try to help me be as comfortable as possible and function as long as I can, it made me appreciate more what I have going for me. I, like you, am facing the eventual final day. For me it has made me want to do more for others and leave a positive memory.