good day all

woke up crying my dog would have been one with my body if he could have it his way

i just love him so much

i have no doubt of his love for me

as my beautiful Lord loves us all

i'm scared that the cancer has been around for a while
and that my bones were and are a sign as my cyst
in my neck something i was born with and also a major factor

it disturbs me something awful no one listening
i have to shake it

blessings for the day:

i am blessed yet another day

help me not to be angry

help me let it go

and let you in

this is all connected

no one paying attention

bless me the release of my anger

it too is cancerous

bless us all the desire of your touch

i am still open to trust

trust

i have demons that i need to rid myself from

the only way is by HONESTLY FORGIVING THOSE IN MY LIFE
WHO I SHOULD HAVE TRUSTED, MY MOTHER AND FATHER

my father committed suicide in 1980 on the day my son was born 3 years later

they stripped me of my natural process going thru phases a girl goes thru naturally

for me the unthinkable

so fast forward 50 years

i'm here still crying over my loss of myself so young

and in A.A. over 20 years i really believed i resolved it

and it's here in my face again

i should be blessed to have come so far

needs it to be wholeheartedly

i'm blessed i can share

God my i thank you the time i have with my family
that means everything to me

may they feel my love for them

it needs to be felt

i have been blessed and feel the love of persons i haven't met in my life but it is there

my you all feel my love of humanity

in God i trust