I had a rough day yesterday...it was even difficult driving because my legs were spasming in waves.
I saw the neuro yesterday...I told him, in tears, that I was tired of the pain but I fight through it even when working out.
He was so wonderful...held my hand and told me he knows I'm strong on the outside, but not to ignore the marshmallow inside...and he finally gave me a narcotic to use only when the pain is strong. He is a very conservative doctor who worries about his patients becoming overdependent on drugs.

Today is a bit better...not in the extreme pain of the last two days. Ahhh...

thanks for advice and support, all...