redwing88,

Glad to hear you have had some good days.

Your concussion history sounds on par with mine. My neurologist told me after reviewing some diagnostic tests, that he believed my current condition may be permanent due to the severity of my prolonged and continuing symptoms. His position was that due to my concussion history, I had exhausted my brain's ability to recover. This is what is sometimes called Multiple Impact Syndrome. The accumulation of injury from multiple impacts has caused damage beyond the brain's ability to tolerate.

This may be your situation. If it is, your best approach now is to learn the various work-arounds and such to do your job. Beware that you may be one slug to the head away from permanent disability.

When you are at the range, pay close attention to how you feel during your session and the day after. If you sense any return of symptoms, you may want to find a full face shield helmet to wear during shooting practice. The blow back blast forces from a 40 or 45 caliber can be more powerful that one would expect.

On a different note, you have an excellent opportunity to explain the cognitive issues of a concussion victim to your department. Being able to recognize the deer in the head lights look of a person struggling with PCS can prevent some escalations in the field. The police normal of using power of voice to maintain control of a subject is counter to a person suffering from PCS. The strong voice can cause the sensory overload resulting in strange behaviors and even violence as the subject tries to protect themselves from the sensory overload.

With the number of Iraq War vets getting in trouble due to their PTSD and PCS, having an inside view of PCS will be a great skill.

My best to you.

btw, Three good days does not a recovery make. Be glad for them but don't take those good days for granted. It is great to have someone who can help you log your good and bad days.