i don't know what is wrong with me. for the last few days i have been feeling so empty and depressed. it is awful. i don't know how to pull out of it. my closest friend has a real problem and i was listening to it last night. that sunk me lower but i told her to keep talking. it is a very scary problem over which she has no control. another friend called but the call kept breaking up. she was upset because her brother bought her a notebook or tablet but got her an email. she was upset about the email. maybe it was good that the phone kept breaking up. i told her she could always get another email. i was really bad. I ordered a lot of licorice from vitacost. i guess the licorice was for my feelings of emptiness but i really be unhappy when i gain weight. i am also tired of drinking chicken soup at night but i don't know what else to have.
I keep on thinking of death. I don't know what has triggered these empty feelings.
the hurricane season is over right? that should be a relief. how much vacation will you get for christmas? I hope a lot. this time can you just do nothing.
last night i listen to a lot of r.e.m. on youtube mix.
i forced myself to listen.
bobby