I will be thinking of you during your appointment. I think alot of what you feel regarding those parts of your body is normal. If we loose parts of ourselves is is natural to grieve for their loss. That isn't vain, but part of the emotional issues involving loss. It is a loss and you have that right to feel as you do.
I am sorry however for your dreaming state. Sometimes our subconcience does overtime with worry, and makes us dream things that frighten. Life is scarry enough! Tell yourself that and maybe those dreams will go away. I hope and pray for the outcome of your office visit. Please do write back and let us know how you are. You are already being very brave. ginnie