I totally understand where you are coming from, I'm 10 months out and am lightyears away from where I was at the beginning, but still find sometimes when I think I'm starting to get there, I have a few bad days and its disheartening.

We all go through that. I really struggle too with things I used to do, and try now that I'm feeling a little better, and then find I still can't do it. I guess it's part of the process.

Know that you aren't alone and I hope there is a good day ahead for you!