So there is something I've been dealing with for about 3 weeks now. I'm not sure if it's anxiety or some kind of damage to my brain that's slowly driving me insane. It usually starts first thing when I wake up...I just feel like I'm not right in the head, like I've gone crazy and should be in a mental hospital. It's not because of headaches [I hardly have them and they don't bother me when they come], or any other symptom...I just feel like I'm doomed, I don't know..Trying to explain it is kinda hard. I have these flashes of thoughts, bad thoughts like hurting people or myself[intrusive thoughts?]..But I would never do something like that, it's just thoughts and when they happen I try to get them out of my head because that's not stuff I normally think about. It takes me awhile to snap out of it and start feeling normal. Sometimes I can't snap out of it and it lasts all the way until 3-4am when my brain finally gets so exhausted it falls asleep. Then I wake up and it's back again. I've been taking a small dosage of Ativan which seems to be working, it's a lot easier to snap out of the going crazy feeling while I'm under the effects. But when I don't have the Ativan it's allllloooot worse. Sometimes I cry and scream out loud "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!" or "SNAP OUT OF IT!" lol...

When I look up symptoms of severe anxiety disorder I see similar symptoms that I'm going through and reading about them kinda makes me feel better...especially when I read stuff that suggests your not going crazy your just stressed out and it's anxiety. But something inside me keeps suggesting that it's probably not anxiety and it's something else...especially since it lasts sometimes all day - and sometimes for days at a time.

I'm going to ask this new neurologist that I'm going to see to refer me to a neuropsychologist, because I know that's what I need...But, I was wondering if anyone else here is dealing with this or has dealt with it and how they overcame it? I know taking Ativan is not the right solution. It's helping, but I don't want to be taking narcotics the rest of my life or however long I have PCS and these psych problems. There's gotta be something else I can do...