Thanks for the encouragement. I'm not sure what is my problem... I've decreased the Amitriptalyne. This was a week ago from last friday. My thoughts today are not good. I feel like running away or checking myself out. I hate this. My husband is asking what is wrong with me and I got nothing. I just woke up thinking I dont care anymore.

Maybe its the medication, maybe it's my head. I dont know. I tried to work through it, ignore it, focus on it but I just dont know anymore.

I wont do anything stupid but I wish there was a magic pill to make me feel better. My head is hurting, whooshing and I'm just so sick and tired of dealing with this. I know we all are struggling...it just plain sucks.

The holidays are coming and I haven't even put up my tree....again I could care less.

I was hoping by venting I can get through this messed up day. I wish I had a doctor I could talk to but...you know how that goes.... So I'll hang in and hope I do ok....

Thanks for listening everyone......