Thanks all of you, for your supportive words, and compassion.

Bizi...

yes it has been a long time coming... i have hinted... and hinted hard. but i never said it flat out point blank like that. this time though she had just seen me go through a panic attack where i went and clung to her for dear life bawling and shaking (i was afraid to be alone - i wanted to say make it stop but i couldn't talk intelligibly). soon after i settled down enough is when i said it. and i think maybe at that point she had her ears more open than usual.

my dad wants non-drug solutions. he said he saw some signs for nearby yoga classes and asked if i'd be interested. i said yes depending where they were etc. he said he will try to get information for me. that is probably one of the most helpful things my dad could do, in terms of contributing to my therapy. i hope he finds something. i don't get around enough to find things. i told him tai chi also. but i think yoga would be better (closed-room).

~ waves ~