i know Bizi. you guys listen to me and do not judge me.

but it's like that phrase sets me off now. hopefully it will just wear off again. that's partly why i asked if Bobby saw something specific, what it was. so i could judge for myself. that part was just dialog. but i felt the need to say that i am overly sensitive to this right now.

what might help me overcome this is if folks specify what it is you see me being hard on myself about. then i can say, ahh, yes, that is true, or oh, oh, no my feelings are different. whether i post about it or not. but if i am not seeing things, it will be more helpful anyway, if someone points them out for me to at least evaluate. i know you guys do not judge. when i am in a better place perhaps the general statement will be ok again. i will prolly still ask if confused.

we always did this in the past. but now it's like i have a sunburn, and having someone pat me on the back when i have a sunburn. the patting person didn't burn me, but the act of patting still hurts because it "activates" the burning sensation.

i will heal. please be patient with me and my sunburn?

i really was beating myself up about the class... that was the source of pressure. not about the wine. i feel disappointed about that.

thanks Bizi for all your support

~ waves ~