I did look up zoloft today. It should not make you anxious. It doesn't mention that as a horrible side effect or anything like that. I take that medication. In time it helps me to calm down. I too am glad your dad is looking into something that can help you relax. I hope your mom will open her heart and realize how serious the anxiety attacks can be. You do need that peace of mind where you can shut out those things that upset you. My real release is a book. I go away someplace, anyplace except where I am at. I loose myself in some adventure and all stress melts away. I never read before I got sick. I did that on the spur of the moment, and I found out my tears dried up while I was reading the book. Since that time I have used reading as a great escape. When I am upselt, I do have my own room which I hide in, and dive into what ever my current read is. I hope that can happen for you. Maybe your folks could adjust to your needs in this one thing for your to have more peace. I'd hide in a closet if I had to! I am still thinking, someone mentioned tichi, or yoga. That was a wonderful idea too. I have been told to do yoga also by friends, but I don't like going in public to do it. I'm not all that hep on large crowds these days. My thoughts and prayers are with you waves. I so hope that your mind and heart can rest a bit. ginnie