thanks.

well for starters i was not going to keep having attacks *and* eating lorazepam *and* still feeling antsy in between.

BENZO's
i close to doubled my long-acting benzo. due to the 100+ hour half-life this was necessary to get results soon. starting Friday night:

3.0 (initial - tentaive - increase)
3.5 x 4 days (loading dose)
3.0 x 2 days (gentler loading)
2.5 going forward (maintenance dose, steady-state basically achieved)

i am taking a part in the am because i need some daytime help.

i called pdoc because of the degree of increase even though i will see him wednesday. i told him what happened and he was fine with it. i suspect he will agree with 2.5mg for a while, or even 3.0 if needed.

ZOLOFT
i will talk to him about more zoloft at this point too since the depression has increased again. it may be a better (non addictive) solution for the anxiety, too. conversely, if i get more anxious despite a concomitant benzo increase, we will know the zoloft is causing anxiety. years ago, when i had lots of anxiety, i was also on zoloft, but we never thought to associate it. so we'll see.

i wish i could take lamictal because i believe it would inhibit a tendency to rapid cycle if the Zoloft got too much. then again i'm still on lots of Depakote, yuck. you know, that's probably what makes me sleepy, not so much the Zoloft - which is what he has suggested. i've never had Zoloft make me sleepy!! EVER!



i got unexpectedly charged with cooking veggies today... gotta go check on them/put them in the serving dish/wash the pot. i am having a glass of wine while cooking. hey, my benzo is'nt up to par yet!

~ waves ~