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Originally Posted by Dr. Smith
Hi Cathie,
I've sat here and tried three.... now FOUR times to say something, but I just keep rambling and getting downright maudlin. I know firsthand the loss of a creative career, and it just plain... [ draws liquid out with the mouth]s.  Maybe that's enough. Creativity is not just in your hands; it's in your mind, your heart, and your soul. It cannot be lost entirely or gotten away from.
Your boss can perch on a pencil.  Don't let him or the surgeon bully you. You need answers/information/ more opinions in order to make intelligent informed decisions regarding any more surgery and your life in general from here on, and you're entitled to get them. 
The anger, pain, and frustration.... USE them!
Illegitimi non carborundum! 
Doc |
Hi Doc,
Anger, pain and frustration are EXACTLY what I feel. You are one of the few people that understands that loosing my fine motor skills in my hand is like loosing a piece of myself. You're right, creative minds can't just be 'shut off'... I've been searching for ways to continue being creative without using my hand. I miss drawing, painting and designing so bad. Probably why I'm so angry with my boss, he doesn't understand I'm not trying to get out of work, I"m loosing what I love to do most in life. Not just my income source, but my hobbies and creative outlet in life.
I'm trying to remain positive through this, but it sure ****** me off when somebody belittles what we go through without understanding the truth. Maybe I was meant to learn the truth about his personality and maybe that job wasn't healthy for me (mentally as well as physically). All things happen for a reason, so maybe there is another door that will open as a result of this one closing.
Thank you for understanding... may I ask what was your profession?
Cathie