Bless your heart. It IS frustrating & depressing when we have conditions that limit our abilities. I'm disabled too due to severe spinal problems, and there are lots of things I just cannot do anymore.

It took me awhile to "accept" that I just wasn't the same as I used to be. BUT I'm grateful for the things that I can still do!! I don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to do them, but I'm not going to worry about it. That's just a waste of my time, cause it doesn't change anything. LOL

You've been thru ALOT -- and I'm amazed at what you CAN do after having 2 brain surgeries & 3 strokes!!! I'd say you were a medical miracle!!! I'm sure your wife loves you just as much as she did before all this happened. Try to stop worrying about the future -- we aren't even PROMISED a future! LOL All we have is today -- so try to live it like there's no tomorrow. Easier said than done, I know -- but give it a try.

And remember that you're NOT alone. There are people "out here" who know what you're going thru. God bless & please take care. Hugs, Lee