thank you for your kind words. I know it could be alot worse. Honestly i want the surgery. I cannot live w this pain! I read someone said you will know if u need the surgery and i havent even seen the nerou surgeon yet! I am not alone. I have a fiance and 4 children. i do however feel very much alone. the thought of someone cutting my skull open and messing w my brain scares the crap outa me