Hi Blaine, I just wanted to post and reach out to give you an e-hug (a gentle one). I can't give much of an advice but I am thinking of you and hoping for the best, for you and your kids and for the horses. It must be so, so hard for you to deal with all of these while being in a pain that not many others understand, and I wish leaving a message for you gives you some hope as that somewhere, someone else cares and has you in their thoughts. Be well!