I have often wondered that same thought. At times I have not wanted to keep going on in my struggles. Yet some good, or some person will fortify my resolve, and jump into my life. Then I think, Why did I feel that way before? I think it is the goodness of others that keeps us going. The seed of faith that things can get better. When I have any bad thoughts, I keep coming back here, and I am renewed. ginnie I hope everyone on the site has a happier and healthy New Year.