Of course you miss your beloved pet. It does indeed make that first holiday without him sad. You also lost him close to the holiday itself. I also looked at scruffys pictures, and petted my new cat sammy. I think my companion was speaking from heaven to tell Sammy how to behave with all the wrappings and bows. It was almost spooky how like him Sammy was. In time, your grief will become tolerable. There is no way to rush this eithor. I just wanted you to know I understand your great loss. You are in my thoughts as the new year begins. ginnie