Your childhood pillow is stuffed with angels, quietly soothing your soul.
I would want to keep the angels close to me too. That comfort is important and I am glad you have that. I wish you had more, but apparantly your family just can't accept your RSD. I so hope you get to get out of the country to see a new physician. I respect you so much for still having a job and earing income. That is extra hard to do in pain. I have not heard of the treatment you are seeking. I know that I tried to find the best doctors I could too for m own medical issues. I hope that avenue opens up for you, that you can try this treatment. Many people on neuro talk, hope that new breakthroughs will happen for their medical situations.
In this country I have medicare/medicaid. I do thank God for it. I at least have the access to my doctors. It does not include dental, so my teeth take a back seat for repair. It took me 9 years to go back to the dentist, and boy I did have some problems....It does come down to what you can afford for the care we get. I really hope that the money will be spent on your RSD and not something to drive around in. Our lives are more important than a material possession. I will pray that your family will give you the same money so that you can get more help. I am sorry that your doctors do not provide enough pain medications. This counrty is in trouble with abuse of drugs by people not needing them. Therefor sometimes a physician will hold back what is needed. For the most part however,a good pain specialist is available and my doctor is compassionate to me. He has a wonderful personality, and I am blessed to have him in my life. I hope you can find this kind of doctor. I even sent my doctors Christmas Cards, to let them know I appreciate them being in my life. I am here kitty anytime you want to talk. I come back here to this neuro talk because of all the good souls I have met. There is friendship and great compassion. I will be thinking of you. ginie